Something For The Girls

Hi friends,

It’s been a long time, but I’ve decided that now is a good time to try and reconnect with my friends and readers via blog post. Why? Because I miss this medium. Also, social media is fickle. Billionaires own or buy platforms and can change the way we interact with the people we care about at any second. So I’m here, giving you an update on my life.

My GoFundMe reached its goal today, which means I have the funds I need to move later this year, and I’m so excited. Moving has been the topic in every therapy session, every talk with friends, and its so exciting to have one aspect of it settled, the financial aspect. I’m still looking for a job and still writing a shit ton but money is still scarce, so the fundraiser has been a huge help. Thank you if you shared, contributed, or spread the word in any way.

While I’m so excited to move I’ve also been experiencing a sense of deep sadness. I want this move to be over with already. I want to be the woman I want to be already. I wanna be thirty. I want to have a lover. So many wants. This deep sadness, I think, comes from mourning the life I had here. I’ve been many people in Pittsburgh, mostly people I haven’t been very proud of or liked very much. A liar, a drunk, kind of a player. Its been a rocky 29 years. I mostly mourn for myself age 22, which I have written about. This city feels so emblematic of what I was like at that age and what I went up against and I can’t stand in the shadow of that woman anymore. I have to step away.

I’m not running from my problems. I know things will follow me. Things trail behind you like ghosts. It happens. I’m not looking to escape in that way. I just want to be better and I don’t think I can do that here. I’m sad, but I’m also looking toward something so beautiful. I can’t wait to be closer to my brother, and my niece whom I love so much. She’s definitely the light of my life and talking to her brings me so much joy. I’m excited to start a new job and continue growing my writing portfolio. I’ve got so much to mourn but even more to look forward to.

I can have a little happiness in the wake of my despair, a little something for the girls so to speak, a little treat. What I’ve been consuming lately that has brought me joy, I want to share it with you:

  • Podcasts:

    • Stay F. Homekins with Paul F. Tompkins and Janie Haddad Tompkins

    • Comedy Bang Bang

    • Threedom

    • I Love A Lifetime Movie

  • Youtube:

    • RawBeautyKristi

    • The Welsh Twins

  • Music:

    • Orion Sun

    • Sunni Colon

    • Reyna Tropical

    • Remi Wolf

    • Toni Braxton

    • Bartees Strange

    • Lomelda

    • Sun June

    • Mini Trees

  • TV/Movies

    • All Of Us Are Dead

    • Our Flag Means Death

    • Station 11

    Thanks for reading, hope you found something you could use!

    xo

    DJ